I am a lot missing you, grandma..

Almarhumah Hj. Aam Amanah Binti Lisan,
Alfatihah ...

Dear, grandma..
It's almost been 40 days since your funeral.
I actually never realize that you have already gone.
You are still here, dearest...
Here..
In my heart..
As always.

Dear, grandma..
I'm sorry for the tears that I can't fully hide in every time I read Yaasin and Fatihah for you..
It's just falling down.
Sorry for the watery eyes that I always show in every time I saw a moment where I and you also used to do together.
Sorry for the wet cheeks that I always make in every time I feel you are so close with me as I have never felt that close before.

Dear, grandma..
I actually can't move on to the reality that you have already gone.
Already gone..
You are the closest person ever I am comfortable with.
Ever...

Dear, grandma..
I do not know what should I talk about you.
I just miss you.
So much.

Tomorrow is your 40th day of your funeral.
I should give a movement.
I'll try my best not to cry over you.

Now,
I just want to say..
I always love you.
Forever.

With love,
Your lovely grandchild.